Tragedy

In December I learned that one of my best friends passed away from some random guy who messaged me on Facebook. I was in shock but didn’t believe it. I tried calling him no answer. I tried getting in contact with some mutual friends but no one knew anything. They just wanted answers like I did. I was so focused on finding information out that I didn’t even begin feeling much lost because I convinced myself this was a horrible joke. I poked around quite a bit and learned that he died in a fire of an abandon building. At first I couldn’t speak just stare…then I ran to the bathroom and couldn’t stop getting sick and crying. Felt like I was dying from the inside out! After that my ability to function on a day to day basis seriously declined. My shop was not doing well during the holiday season my relationship with my fiancé was faking a part, my ability to play and be a real mom to my daughter was lacking, and taking care of my general needs seemed impossible. There are still so many unanswered questions.

Last night I just found out my Aunt and Uncle were attacked by my Aunt’s son. My Aunt didn’t make it and my Uncle is in the hospital with serious injuries to recover from. At the moment I am still in shock and trying to figure out answers. When will this nightmare be over?